Friday, May 23, 2014
Another Test of Faith
If then you cannot do even a very little thing, why do you worry about other matters? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; but I tell you, not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass in the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, how much more will He clothe you? Luke 12:26-28
Not what we want to hear...right? But yet here I am....with another test. I will not go into details at the moment, but it definitely is going to be something that I will have to lean on God for. I will have to trust Him that there is a reason for this. I will have to believe that no matter how minor this may seem to someone else- that God knows it means the world to me and is breaking my heart. I know there are many many people dealing with worse things, but I also know that God counts the hairs on my head- so he cares about everything that his children care about. I will have to believe that God will give me the wisdom to make the right decisions. Sometimes I want to say- enough already! Can we please have a break! God knows the beginning and the end- it is not my job to figure it out, only to trust in his timing and purpose.
More than anything, I want my Mom right now. I look at her picture and just wish she could talk to me. I want her to tell me that everything is going to be fine, and that God has equipped me to handle this. I want her to put her arms around me and tell me that she is proud of me and I am doing a great job. I want so badly to hear her say- "I love you Baby Girl." Would that make it all go away? Of course not, but it sure would make me feel better.
Maybe you are going through a trial you do not understand. In times of trials I always go back to my favorite bible verse. Jeremiah 29:11. I have stood on that verse many days and will continue.
The test will become a testimony one day. I can feel it.